Sadness

Last night I cut my hair. It turned out pretty cute. I gave myself some swishy side bangs. Then cut in some face framing pieces and trimmed the bottom so it wasn't scraggly.

We went to the gym. It was SO much fun! I loved it! I'm a little sore today but not too bad at all. I was just learning everything mostly. We did leg presses and I did 540lbs!!! Pretty darn good if I do say so!

This chick is a beast. Who exercises in a bikini? Show off.

We went home. Happy with the day excited for our next trip to the gym. We went to bed. At about 1:45am we got a phone call. It was Justins Mom. His stepdad had just died in his sleep.

His stepdad has had some troubles and has been to the doctor. I'm not sure all of the details but the doctors had recently given him about 5 years to live. No one expected it to be a couple weeks. They aren't really sure how he died. The ambulance people suspected accidental overdose. He had a lot of different pills the doctor prescribed. Justins Mom says no way.

Today hasn't been a good day. He's not in pain anymore so that's good. But I keep thinking how he won't be at the wedding. Justin brought this up and realizing that he's upset by it makes me very emotional. He won't get to meet our future kids. Justin and his Mom, Debbie, seem to be taking it better than I am. They accept it better. Me?...not so much.

I lost my Grandpa last November. I remember because it was before my families big get together for Thanksgiving. He wasn't there. Ever since then I'll just start crying. People die all the time. You could see them one day. Any number of things could happen and they could die the next. It has made me very aware of how short life is. I worry about people. It makes me nervous when people aren't with me. I worry that something bad might happen to them. Irrational, I know, but true. Cars make me exceptionally nervous. I see bad things happening. Picture it in my head. Then I start to tear up. It's part of why, at age 23, I still don't have my license. I'm paranoid that I might get in a crash. It scares me. There's not any one time I can recall that might have made me feel this way. It's just always put me on edge to be in vehicles.

Anywho, let me bottle up this emotion really fast before Justin sees. I have definitely been better.

Corset update

Remember the corsets/bustiers I ordered? The two of them because I was silly and bought one on ebay and then won another. I got them in the mail awhile ago. Here's the story.

My honey (who still doesn't know I bought them) called me at work and said, "Honey, did you order something from ebay?"

Me: "Me? What? Huh?" pretending to be oblivious.

Honey: "Did you buy something from ebay?" he says this like he's talking to a little kid who got their hand caught in the cookie jar.

Me: "I don't know what your talking about" I sound prissy and stuck up with a hint of smile.

Honey: "Uh huh..." I can hear rustling in the background.

Me: "No Honey! Don't open it!"

He laughed and left it in the room for me. For the rest of the workday I was eager to go home and tear open my new toy! I love how it feels like Christmas when I get stuff in the mail! When I get home I rush inside my bedroom and told Justin "Do NOT! come in here!". Tear open the package, pieces of paper and plastic flying everywhere. Finally I reach the prize and see the beautiful material. It is so very very pretty. I pull it out, hold it up and look at it, a huge smile on my face. It was perfect!

Then I held it to me ready to try it on...

*swear words...lots and lots of swear words...and then more swear words and maybe, perhaps some stomping*

It was a 2 frickin' X!!! A 2X!!! They said the sizes run small so I figured, okay, I'll get a 2X and it will definitely fit, maybe be too big. No way in hell is that going to fit me. Even if I kill myself with exercise and dieting. No way.

MOH Sammi came over yesterday because I wanted to see if it could fit her it was that small. She tried it on and what do you know. It fit! Okay, not a perfect fit but it looked decent. It fit her boobs but around her waist it was a little hangy. (Hangy? Nice word). You can see her picture over on the side there. She is around a size 5 comfortably. But she can fit a friggin' 3.

3? Are you kidding me? The sizes run a little small? I didn't look at the measurements they suggest so it is my fault. But come on.

I felt like crap earlier. A 2X was too small for me. Then after I saw that it fit Sam I felt better about my size and even more angry at those damn internet people. I sucked it up though...the corset really was gorgeous. Just completely the wrong size. I purchased another one yesterday. A (scary movie music) 5X! (AHHHHHHH! Throw your popcorn in the air) Let's hope this one f'kin' fits!

So, both of the corset/bustiers I purchased before don't fit because they are the same size. I'm currently in the process of trying to find a home for them. I thought about craigslist, but that never seems to work. And I'm too lazy to start an ebay account for selling stuff. I'm a buyer, not a seller. So begins my search for someone who is small and will buy the depressing corsets from me.

The Muscle Studio!

I am so friggackilackin' (sound it out) excited! Justin and I signed up and are now members of The Muscle Studio! It's a gym in South Beach (close to us). Woo frickin' Hoo! We plan on going tomorrow. Our first day at our gym!

These people seem really great! On top of the 24 hour access to their gym, they'll also work with you to develop a "plan" when you first sign up. After that you have to pay $40 an hour if you'd like training etc. But the initial "plan" is free. Oh how I love free. They also have free classes (yoga, cardio, all that good stuff) that you can go to. The best part? It's only $55 a month for both of us! What a deal!

...Ohmmmmmm...

We were so excited that we went out yesterday and purchased new running shoes and some cute workout clothes. Justin's weren't cute I suppose. But they look pretty darn good on him.

Speaking of my Honey. We rarely (and I mean RARELY) drink alcohol. We bought some yesterday (while shopping for exercise clothes) with the plan to go home and have a little drink. Have you ever had these?

The...well we call it bitch beer? Strawberry daiquiri flavor is Justin's favorite. After 1. Just 1. Justin was tipsy. Then he had one more. Total of two.

Oh. my. goodness.

Who knew my Honey was such a lightweight? He was hilarious! And drunk. Yes, drunk. Off of two wine coolers. It was the funniest thing ever and the first time I've ever seen him drunk. What a sight.

Beat That!

Nothing can beat the Summer Festival fireworks show. It is one of the major highlights of the weekend and there is no question why. Without a doubt these are the best fireworks on the coast by far. If only the stinkin' wind would have cooperated tonight. There was no wind at all. At all. And for those of you who don't know...that means all of the smoke from the fireworks stayed where it was. With no wind to blow the smoke away all of the fireworks went off behind clouds. Damn. It was still an amazing friggin' show! But it could have been so much better if it wasn't for the wind...or lack thereof.

It was a pretty cool sight with the fireworks behind the clouds. Kinda like a sweet lightning storm, only and full of color.

I wasn't able to stay all of today because I got sick in the afternoon. Had to go home and rest. I'm not sure what was wrong with me but I was shaky, had terrible cramps (no clue why) and was on the verge of passing out (so not cool). So I thought it would be a good idea to take a break. I felt bad though because I was helping man the info trailer for the committee. Oh well, stuff happens.

Another highlight of Summer Fest is the logging show. Actually it's pretty much what the whole thing is centered around. To start off the logging show the Queen (my sister!) throws an axe...and it has to stick (go figure). So she was practicing yesterday at my Mom and Dads house and threw her axe through the garage. Oops! Small hole, not too bad.

Her axe is great! It is bright pink with pretty rhinestones. Logger glam! So when she went down to the field after today's parade to practice at her actual target in front of people...she was given instructions and help by some of the local loggers. Everyone soon realized Sammi's axe was about 10lb heavier than the axes that loggers use for this event. 10lb is a HUGE difference. Plus, the handle and the head of the axe were not balanced, making a difficult throw. And the head of the axe had rounded edges instead of super sharp evil looking ones...which made it bounce off the target instead of stick. Double damn. So she had to give up her fantabulous axe and go for a normal one.

So it was time for her to be front and center. The stands were packed (as always) crowds were gathered around all staring. She was announced and all waited for her to throw the axe. This picture is similar to our targets except we have cages around them.

Her first attempt Sam nicked the outer rim. The announcer blamed the wind for her and offered her to take 3 steps forward. She declined of course. No way would that work for Samantha. Her second throw she hit what would be the equivalent to the blue/red area. SWEET!! She rocks!

Here is a pic of our logging show. This is the choker setting, my personal favorite.

Summer Fest

This weekend is the Toledo Summer Festival. This years theme is "lights, camera, action" so the float for the court is all hollywood glam. Very cute. And yay again my sister made Queen!

I'm not really sure what I'll be helping out with down there, I just know I'll be helping. Tonight is the huge fireworks show too. Fun Fun.

My rides here...asta la vista!

Queen Sammi!

I've been pretty busy lately between the wedding, Summer Fest., and work. Tonight was corination. Sammi won Miss Congeniality ($100), Most sales ($250), and Most hours volunteered ($250). She also won QUEEN ($500)! Total scholarship money is $1,100. Good job Sam! She worked really hard all summer long for this, she really deserved it. We made a little "bet" earlier in the year. The just of it was, if she won I promised I'd do her hair for every day of the festival. Damn.

Well, I'm off to try and catch up on some sleep. The bed is calling my name...

Nap time yet?

Things have been SOOO busy lately. We went and signed paperwork for the loan yesterday. That took forever and a day. After that we went through and organized all of the bills we want to pay off. Today we went to the bank to deposit our moolah. Woo Hoo! We're RICH...for the moment. It's all being used for something. No crap spending! That's the rule.

I had to make a crafty little ballot box for Summer Festival. I'm supposed to be making the little vote cards for it as we type/read. But this is just so much more fun.

Me and Justin went and saw The Dark Knight this evening. It was REALLY REALLY great! I loved it. Amazing movie. Go see it. Two Face's face in the end...loved it! Awesome awesome job. And of course Heath Ledger...there could not have been a better joker.

Well, I gotsta get to friggin' work on the voter cards. Then sleep would be good. Sometime tonight.

OMG! YES! YES! YES!

I am through the roof! Crazy giddy! Uber excited! Why you might ask? For the silliest reason ever probably. We applied for a personal loan to consolidate our bills and it all went through a-okay. We even got more than we asked for. This way we can pay off ALL OF OUR DEBT!!! And still have money left over to get the essentials for the wedding we were stressing over (tables, chairs, etc.). In fact, there will be quite a bit left over and we plan on putting it away so we can go on our large family outing to Disneyland next September with no worries!

ROCK ON!!

Bouquets

What do you think? - please excuse the mess. This is our "extras" room so it's full of wedding stuff and other extras.

I've been putting off making my bouquet because I've been worried I'd mess it up. But I took the plunge and really like how it turned out. There are still finishing touches it needs but I'll give you a glimpse of the "in progress" work.

It still needs the stems wrapped and ribbon added but that stuff is easy peazy.

These are the bridesmaids bouquets. I love the way they turned out. A different flower for each bridesmaid and my bouquet has all of their flowers plus a few little extras.

A closeup of the orchid.

I have the rehearsal invitations ready. The wedding invitations were made earlier. Now I need to put together the information for our reception and the direction cards. None of this has been printed yet. It's saved on my computer and ready to be printed. All alignments made and everything.

P.S. My corsets were both shipped out! I should have them by next week! Woo Hoo!!!

Oops...

So uh...You know that corset/bustier thing I told you I won on ebay. Well, I liked another one too...so I bid on both and figured that I would get outbid on one or the other and oh well.

I just won the other one also. Whoopsy daisy.

I bought this one from ebay seller aabestshop.

Well...at least now I have some options right? Let's not tell Honey just yet. He can find out on the honeymoon. At least then I'm pretty damn sure he won't be worried about the price.

Busy bumble bee

I wasn't comfortable calling myself a "little" bee, so "bumble" fit perfect.

Quick report on current healthy lifestyle status...Doing great! We've been walking more and swimming since it's been hot out. I love to swim! I could swim for hours...and I do. And as a side benefit, it's great for you! Been eating great too. I think I'm starting to like it *gasp!*

Today I went with my sister, MOH Stephanie, while she got a tattoo on her foot. It's cute, three green bubbly stars.

Found out what I'm doing for a cake. The original plan was to have Steph bake us our cake. But the bakery just got a catalog in and my Mom thought it was too good of a deal to pass up so she ordered them...and then told me. Ever heard of petit fours? Think little mini cakes. Bite size. Here's a not-so-good pic of the exact ones we are getting (minus the packaging).

Aren't they friggin' cute! I love this idea!

Not very detailed pics (and this one is pretty red) but they have maple leaves and pumpkins on them. PERFECT!

We'll probably have Steph bake us a small cake for the cake topper. I'm still debating this though. The idea is these will be on a tower thingy (with some spread around on the table) and then the cake topper could just be on top of the tower. We haven't decided yet.

We've got a rough draft of the entire ceremony done. Just needs some rewording to flow smoother.

I wrote my vows. Pretty sure Justin hasn't but I'm not worried about that. He said, let's put it this way...if you are tearing up during the wedding. My vows are gonna make you bawl. Good enough for me!

Hmmm...what else have I done...Oh yeah, we drafted up a list of people coming to the wedding, how many in their party (minus kids under 2, they're invited they just don't count as seats) and grouped them into sections (easier to keep track of friends, my family side A, side B, side C, his family side A, etc.). Now all we have to do is give a list to each Mom and work out the details. There is still a lot to do with the lists. But I'm glad we at least have this draft done. For instance, we can't agree on how to address people (oh yeah, I have to find addresses too). The *fill in the blank* family, Uncle Bill and Aunty Carolyn, Mr. and Mrs. *Blank*, Amber *Blank* and Guest, or any combination of these. We'll probably just say them out loud and whichever sounds best to us YEAH! That's the winner!!

I also purchased a couple more things for the wedding. Just little accessories but I'm glad they are one more thing I can check off. Pretty sure my honey doesn't read this so I'm confident in posting it. I purchased this super cute corset/bustier something-or-other to go under my dress. I have a larger chest so I'm anxious/excited to get it and see if it will actually do the trick. I'd hate to have to worry about straps and such showing during "The Day".

I am absolutely in love with this thing. I hope it does the trick. I got it from ebay seller Nawtyfoxlingerie. I'll be sure to post how it fits.

*On a side note, this is going to be my "something blue".

I have some other little tidbits that are in the works but I think I've done enough for one night. Tomorrow I'm working out the details for this stroke of genius, uber cute, cake topper perfection.

*sigh of relief*...life is good.

So close

I just happened to glance at my little countdown and realized that we are under 100 days till the wedding! Only 97 left! 97!

It has been so hot here. We are going swimming today to cool off. But I really should get a move on with wedding stuff. Finalize everything. Finish plans. Tomorrow. I'll do it tomorrow.

Pumpkin Patch

My Mom was able to find out the price of the pumpkins for me from a local grocery store. Since I want one of those humongous cardboard crates full of them it was kinda hard to guess what the price would be. I don't know about you, but we usually buy around 4 for the whole family, not the whole box.

They said it is .20 cents per pound. According to them one of those boxes weighs about 700lb. For those of us who aren't human calculators, this is about $140 total. Not nearly as bad as I thought it would be. But the weight is only a rough estimate. It all depends on the pumpkins.

One box should be plenty of pumpkins to decorate the whole place. My own pumpkin patch!

I was suppose to have my first dress fitting today but it's been moved to Sunday. I'm dreading it anyways so it wasn't a problem for me to put it off. The lady who will be altering it for me is a friend of my Aunts. I hope this goes well. My fingers are crossed...

Tent, tables and chairs...Oh My!

So on the plus side I called the local rental place in my area to inquire about prices on tents, tables and chairs.

Oh. My.

No way can we afford what we had planned. Let us see, shall we?
20' x 40' tent (won't fit everyone) is $132 per day, minimum 3 days =$396
chairs are .90 cents each, we'll say 100 needed (more like 120) =$90
tables $6 for a 6' or $8 for a 5' round, we'll go with the 6', need 3 for food/gifts, maybe 17 for other people (not likely) =$120
Grand total is $606 for this alone.

We still have a pretty long list of things that still need purchased. How about I list it for you. Good plan.

Location for 2 days=$150
Marriage license =$60
Justins outfit (no tux for him) = ?
Giant box of pumpkins (they sell during Halloween time) = ?
Smaller pumpkins to decorate =<$4.00 per bag
Rehearsal dinner food (pizza?) = ?
Gift for ring bearer =<$10
Cake stuff (made by my baker sister and MOH Stephanie) =<$20
Tulle to decorate= ?
Maple leaves to decorate = I've decided me and bridal party are just gonna go pick the damn things
Hair/nails for me = probably won't happen...it's nice to dream.
Reception =Mommy? I think my mom is getting most of this for me. Thank You Mom!!! But I can't expect her to pay for it all.
cups, plates, silverware, napkins
Table covers, table runners = ? maybe some colored tulle for the runner?
Cutting knife and serving thing = ?...can't I just decorate my kitchen knife? No? Damn.

I'm sure the list goes on and on of the things we should be purchasing. I'm thinking it's going to end up more like the wedding in Sweet Home Alabama. The second wedding, not the first. Well, maybe the end of the first (the punch). Family can get rowdy.

I am also doing what I think is a cute little thing. Since I'm decorating with pumpkins (love 'em) I am going to have pretty pieces of cut ribbon with a tag. Our monogram on one side and the other blank. Through the reception people will get a ribbon (like a raffle? still to be decided) to write their names on the back of and tie around the pumpkin of their choice. Now they've got a pumpkin for Halloween. Yeah! My flower girl and ring bearer get first picks of course.

Do you think there is anywhere around here I can sell my kidney? I only need one after all...I think.

In your face "allergies"

Remember when I felt like crap a couple days ago? More than a few people told me it was just "allergies" and I believed them. It sounded like the typical allergy symptoms...made sense. All through it though I kept thinking, this doesn't feel like allergies. I thought I had a fever. But alas, we have no thermometer, so no proof.

I was sick!

I feel just fine and dandy now. Woohoo! And guess what? Mr. "let's-make-fun-of-cry-sack-for-not-being-able-to-hack-allergies" Justin has my exact symptoms. Now who's the cry sack! In your face! I was sick. Summer cold, whatever you want to call it. I was sick and I swear to bejesus I had a fever.

Ahhh. It's nice to breathe like a human. I am so glad it wasn't allergies. I couldn't make it through a whole summer feeling like that. It was terrible. I must take care of my honey now. He is being a baby. It's okay though. Now he understands how shitty I felt. We're even.

Flowers, check!

Yesterday I brought out all of my craft supplies, put on a movie (Runaway Bride) and got to work. I finished all of the boutonnieres, the rest of the bouquet toss flowers, and all of the bridesmaids bouquets. Yeah Me! I am really impressed with my bridesmaids bouquets. I was trying to find a way to wrap the stems so it looked "finished". The ribbon wasn't looking pretty on it at all. So I used the raffia Justin insisted I get (he said "I'm sure you can find a way to use this" and picked it up in the store). He was so correct. Do you remember those hemp necklaces you used to make as a kid? How you wrapped them around and around with a half hitch knot over and over? Well I did that and I must say I love the final product. It fits in perfectly with my laid back, fall look. I wish I had done it with the boutonnieres. But those are done now and I don't feel like taking them apart just to put them back together again with a different material. They look good how they are. I'll get some pics on here later.

Today I might try making my bouquet. But I kinda want to find some large maple leaves to put around the base of my bouquet and finish off "the look".

I love maple leaves. LOVE THEM! The are so pretty and come in such a variety of species. The colors are amazing! And every time they change to those brilliant shades I smile. My favorite season is fall and the maple leaves are the mascot. I love the smell of them on the ground...The smell of fall. I love how they crunch when you walk on them. I love the giant maple trees.

Story time:

When I was little my Grandma had a giant maple tree up on a hill next to her house. I used to go hike up that hill and just sit under the tree and breathe deeply. It was my muse. I felt so right sitting there. Like I belonged and nothing could separate me from that place and time. I felt an energy when I was there. I felt like I glowed and radiated something that no one could see. I would just sit there with my hands open. Tilt my head up to the sky, close my eyes, and feel...and breathe.

The end

I love maple leaves. They mean to me the utmost happiness. An absolute wholeness. They are perfect to include in my wedding. When I vow to eternally love the one person in the world who can make me feel like I do when I'm with my maple leaves.

I can smell this picture...I love fall...

Independence Day!

Happy 4th of July!

This is a pic of California disneyland fireworks over the castle. I can't wait to go next year. Yippee skippee!

This is a little clip of the Disney Fireworks from our last vacation.

Sorry about my super filming skills.

We are off to go camping later this afternoon. But first I'm gonna go watch Independence Day with my honey. Gotta love the aliens! Blog you later!

Bloggin' Fool

Before I go to sleep I need to talk about something more frilly, light, cheerful. I was taking a nice long walk with my sister the other day (yeah me for walking!)and some kids she was babysitting (they are figgin' adorable!) and we stopped by the library. First of all I must say that the library has been one of my favorite places in the world ever since I was little. I love books. I love to read.

I went to the library with a purpose. To get a book about love that I have checked out in the past. I love this book. It has love stories, essays, poems, letters to lovers and more. Love the love book. Haha. I plan on using it to help me write my vows. Inspiration. So tonight I share with you a few of my favorite excerpts/entries. Mind you these are just some of the many, many, MANY that I love.

Fountain-heads and pathless groves,
Places which pale passion loves,
Moonlight walks, when all the fowls
Are safely housed, save bats and owls,
A midnight bell, a passing groan,-
These are the sounds we feed upon.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

First Love
I ne'er was struck before that hour
With a love so sudden and so sweet,
Her face it bloomed like a sweet flower
and stole my heart away complete.

My face turned pale as deadly pale,
My legs refused to walk away,
And when she looked, what could I ail?
My life and all seemed turned to clay.

And then my blood rushed to my face
And took my eyesight quite away,
The trees and bushes round the place
Seemed midnight at noonday.
I could not see a single thing,
Words from my eyes did start-
They spoke as chords do from the string,
And blood burnt round my heart.

Are flowers the winter's choice?
Is love's bed always snow?
She seemed to hear my silent voice,
Not love's appeals to know.
I never saw so sweet a face
As that I stood before.
My heart has left its dwelling-place
And can return no more.
-John Clare

Give me a kiss, and to that kiss a score;
Then to that twenty, add a hundred more:
A thousand to that hundred: so kiss on,
To make that thousand up a million.
Treble that million, and when that is done,
Let's kiss afresh, as when we first begun.
-Robert Herrick (1591–1674) from "To Anthea"

I absolutley love this last one. It's been my favorite for a long time. I'm gonna go kiss my honey. Goodnight everyone!

Rage

I like to keep things happy. Or at least sarcastic and talkative. But things like this...I am so...let's see...pissed off, enraged, disgusted, fearful, sad. I hate people. Most are good I know. Actually I don't. It's about 50/50 for me between the good guys and the bad. There are tons of horrible people out there and...I truly don't have the words to describe how I feel.

It completely breaks my heart and infuriates me at the same time. It makes me worry about everyone I know that could be hurt. It makes me worry about children everywhere and children that I don't have yet. How can I bring a baby into a world when there are so many evils and not enough justice.

People who rape, people who murder should die. No questions asked. They don't deserve to live. At all. No exceptions. There is never a good enough excuse. EVER. EVER!

Read this and understand. Read this and do something, ANYTHING about it.

Fireworks, Camping and Stress

Tonight and tomorrow night we get to watch big fireworks shows. Woohoo!! Two cities we live next to have a fireworks show. One on the 3rd and the other on the 4th. I am so excited. I love the little white ones with the big BOOM! This is my second time ever watching the fireworks with anyone. *sigh* I love my fiance...

Then tomorrow after the fireworks we are going out camping with some friends for the rest of the weekend. Yippee! I'm somewhat of a bad kid. I love playing with the fire. Can you say pyro? That and pushing people in the water are two of my favorite camping activities. I jump in the water too. But they (anyone close to the edge) must go first. Muah ha ha!

Samantha's fiance Wade bought $200 worth of fireworks so I think we are going to hang out with my family for a little while at some point. Not sure where. But you can never have enough fun stuff to do. Hmmm...I really don't know how this will work now that I think about it. We'll see what happens.

I realized yesterday that our wedding is coming up pretty darn (who am I kidding) damn fast. I need to just take a day and bust out my moves. Get a whole bunch done with. The flowers I could finish in one day if I was up to it. And since now I know all my details I could knock out the invites too. (perhaps a second day for this so I don't go ape shit).

Side note: I swear worse than a sailor. My Grandma Peg taught me. I heart her!

I'm kinda stressing again...this is because it dawned on me that I need to find tables and chairs and figure out the setup of an outdoor tent (need to find this too) and food table(s) and all that stuff. How is it going to work? Who knows. I have to fit let's say 100 people (we are inviting more than this though) into the tent comfotably and give them a place to sit and eat. That was the idea. But I'm not seeing the logic here. I just hope to hell it doesn't rain. That would be fan-frickin'-tastic!

Also, I'm pretty much hating my wedding dress. I don't feel pretty at all in it because it hangs. Much like a giant squid carcass with the top of its head cut off, I imagine. I bought it online (just shut up all of you) the pic is absolutely gorgeous, so I sent them my measurements. I got it back and although it is a great dress (quality, beading, etc.) they used one of the measurements for EVERYTHING! My hip measurement. So my waist should be about 12 inches smaller and my boobs about 2 inches bigger. AHHHH!!!! I have this nice fat tubey look going on. Sweet. I am not looking forward to taking it to a seamstress because I have never in my life had good luck (or final product) from any of them. This should be great. Just fucking great.

Pretty huh? If only they, oh I don't know, pulled their heads out of their asses and used my measurements!

Breathe...hooooo (me blowing out air. kinda like an owl only not really. More windy.)

Back to happy. Fireworks...yeah! Camping...yeah! Wedding planning...yeah (sarcastic).

July? Already?

It seems like the year just started. I can't believe that it's already July! Happy July everyone! Christmas in July...I love those shows. I don't know about everyone else but during July we always watch X-mas movies (sometimes on tv). It gets me all warm and fuzzy inside just thinking about X-mas. And this year I will celebrate it with my HUSBAND! Good gravy that takes my breath away. I am going to have a husband. I am going to be someones wife. Weird. So weird.